updated...

scul reopened,
n lotta works r coming in 1 by 1...

finally stepped into the form 4 life,
so...
shud i b happy??
relieved??
or sad??
stressed??
all of these i think...

now tat i'm 16,
well nt reali yet actually,
but tat means sth else to me...
nt only from d sense of academics, cocurriculum...
but,
emotions as well...
i'm feeling blank,
bcz form 4 gv me a strange n unfamiliar feelings...
the subjects r all 'strangers' to me,
n i'm afraid for my spm...
n thn d sekretariat post tat compulsaried me to speak in front of ppl...
tat alwayz keep me nervous,
though i'd used to speak in front of ppl for many times whn being an MC 4 assembly n while taking competitions during primary time...
n thn i feel lyk no purpose,
juz suddenly my heart feel so blank,
as i hav no feelings twrds any1 for nw...
tis is supposed to b a good sign rite??
but...
it juz makes me feel quite weird...
n i duno how to describe tis feeling...

however,
i feel relieved n kinda excited while i gt to know tat tis year d kem waja wil b cancelled,
n it's replaced by hiking @ gunung jerai...
i luv adventures,
n so i'm quite looking 4wrd to tis trip,
n i hope it'll gv me lotta fun...
1 day 1 nite,
n i hope there'll b a real campfire there...
n if there reali is,
i hope i cn b mre sporting tis time...

all in all,
its a new year,
n 2010 has b'come a past...
so future is d thing tat i shud b concentrating rite nw,
n sincerely,
i hope tat i can concentrate on my studies n exams,
n nt to think of nonsense anymre...
yeah tats it... =)