interview

what to say about this urusetia's interview?
the end of the world to me i think.....
i never get more frustrated than anything else,
because,
this interview means a lot to me, specially my future in Prefects Board...
the situation that we were given was indeed...hard,
i just...couldn't bring myself to a real action...
i wasn't nervous, but i didn't have quick-thinking, though i've hold this post for about 7 months...
and then there's one thing that i was kind of sorry to myself...
i feel like i cannot forgive myself for that,
although i know that i was telling the truth...
if that person cannot get a post in urusetia due to this decision,
what shall i do???
i don't know whether i'm doing the right thing or not,
because i don't know my decision to write it was actually depending on my own prejudice or fair judgement...
i don't know... i don't know... i really don't know...

but after all,
i feel so much better after writing this out. =)