modern fairy tale

yeah it's completely a fairy-tale...

just a fairy tale...

but...too short for a fairy tale to be.

everything was happening too fast,

too unexpected...

recalling the sweet moments,

reading your love-letters and especially-for-me drawings...

it seemed so much like a dream,

but, it wasn't a dream.

feel so weird by now,

when the light emitting from my phone doesn't show your name,

when we only text each other for official matters,

when you address me as 'sister' but not 'dearest', 'my dear', 'my love', 'my princess' anymore,

when you never show any emotions anymore,

when you're so damn covered with guilts....

i know,

that everything's over.

but,

does it have to be so fast???

at times i always wonder,

why does God have to be like this?

why does it have to be so many races and religions in this world?

why cant everyone be the same?

but no matter how unfair we feel,

fate is still not gonna change,

right?

after this happened,

i kept telling myself,

i lost a relationship,

but i still have a friendship...

i try to be strong,

and during the day i'm much stronger than i've expected to be,

i train myself,

by trying to recall every sweet moments we shared,

and not letting my tears drop;

however,

when the night approaches,

when darkness covers every corner in my room...

my miseries come again,

and...i'll cry for no reason. 

these scenes....

they're so dramatic...

a romance that lasts for only 2 months and a half....

however,

it's just a passerby in my life,

there still are challenges awaiting for the rest of my life.

so,

i mustn't cry anymore,

i must smile and face another new day.

and,

i sincerely hope,

that you're as fine as me,

or even better than me.

God bless~

P/S:

Special thanks to all my family and siblings,

For your consolation, guidance, and advice;

Because of you all,

My tears stopped dropping anymore;

Because of you all,

I feel another kind of warmth;

Because of you all,

I make myself a stronger person.

Thank you very very much.... =)