what if???

the clock is ticking,

the time is passing...

swiftly? or endlessly??

i don't know...

and i don't wanna know...

thinking of the unknown future...

thinking of the blurring tomorrow...

thinking of the clueless encounter...

what should i do?

and what can i do??

if it's because of my already-ended-relationship...

i thought there'd be no problem,

but still,

i feel very unsafe...nervous,

afraid of teacher's reaction,

afraid of everything...

my mind is full of 'what if...', 'if...', 'what can i do...' ...

i used to think i've a set of answer in my mind,

that i can use to answer anyone whenever they ask me about that.

but now, somehow...

my confidence was 'shaken'...

anxiety swept across my spine and began building in my soul...

and i start to wonder,

what am i going to explain?

and if the encounter isn't about that,

what else could it be??

what had i done???

what should i do????

i don't know....

and the only thing i can do now,

is wait...

waiting...

for...death??

no no...

i still have a long way to go...

i won't escape,

and i'll face it...

with emotionless emotions.

LOLZzzz...........