doors

a door was opened,
and i stepped into it,
without realising,
that the door was closing behind me,
locking me forever in the room...

in the room,
i experienced the feelings of sweet and bitter and pain...

the time ticked away swiftly,
and the door was finally unlocked,
and opened in a half way.
i ran out of the door,
and saw another opened door...

due to curiosity,
i stepped into it...

in that room,
i experienced my first-time-ever,
and also lots of guilt and confusion...

but the door wasn't locked,
i could open it and close it whenever i want.
i was in-control of it,
and i opened and closed...
opened and closed...

and this opening and closing,
indicated that the first door was more attractive,
which i could never be able to tear myself away from it...

willing myself to think of the consequences,
i've sorted everything out and decided...

i close the second door forever,
lock it and leave it empty,
and step into the first door again...

and...
i am locked forever.