hot and cold

i was wondering,
what had happened between the both of us...
i am still wondering,
if i've said anything wrong that made you became so cold...
again.

i hope i have the ability to read thoughts,
i hope i have the ability to foresee future,
as i want so much to know,
what actually do you have in mind,
what actually is your feeling towards me.
i'm blurred and confused,
of your sudden enthusiasm,
and your sudden coldness.

i don't know how to respond to them,
nor that i know how to face you.

the barrier between us,
makes me feel so far away from you,
even though we're just inches away.

is it because of my distanced character?
that i'm the kind of people whom people dare not and do not like to stay close with?
am i really this kind of person in your eyes?
or is it because of my fragile character?
that i'm the one who always pour out everything i feel to you?
have i irritated and annoyed you?

if i've made you annoyed,
i'm sorry;
if i've been bothering you so much,
i'm sorry;
if i've been thinking too much... ...
i'm sorry, too.

i won't disturb you anymore.

so please STOP,
treating me as if i'm some kind of toys to you.
i'm not an emotionless maniac,
i have my feelings.

and please STOP,
treating me with hot and cold...
alternatively.

i'm sick of it.