the God's wink

we can't afford to live up to people's expectation.
but,
we must live up to own-self's expectation.

today,
i told my members about a news.
a news,
that might change the future forever.

and that was when,
all the complicated feelings struck.

looking at the faces,
a mixture of eagerness, beaming-eyes,
followed by a mixture of miseries, discouraged-ness, hopelessness... ...
a pain pierced through my mind,
breaking down the heavy wall of negativeness,
bits by bits,
into pieces of pebbles,
scattering on the memory land.

and that was when the God winked.

the song that played in the atmosphere,
the voices that are still ringing in my ears,
the medley that told me it was my masterpiece... ...

i closed my eyes,
on those negativities' ;
i closed my ears,
on the murmurs around me.

i made up my mind.

and i felt much relaxed.

though many sacrifices must be made,
but,
my responsibility,
it still must be carried out.

or who else is going to carry the invisible rock?

though it's a huge grey rock,
i'll try my best,
to climb over it,
to see the road,
that lays behind.

plus,
this is the final year.
not because of the score,
but because of the last contribution.
to make the school which is now strongly-bonded with me,
proud -- with at least a runner-up.

yes,
i'll do it.

and we'll make it.
and hopefully,
truly hopefully,
the odds won't go against me this time.

i don't want to change my mind.

so... ...
till now,
i'm in. :-)