impossible

beside Hi and Bye,
do we have anything better to say?

beside smiling awkwardly at each other,
do we have anything better than that?

beside talking everything but nothing with each other,
do we have any better conversation?




i remembered it well... ...


1st night of camp.

a question was asked by andrew,
and your hand shot up high,
stating that you were one of the members who liked that faci.
i didn't see it wrongly,
i put up my specs and looked at your hand before it dropped down.

yes,
you did raise up your hand.


but now i wonder,
if your answer was honest.

was it because you knew that i was there?
you did it just to make me happy?
you were afraid that i'd ask you this and that later?
or the present me had irritated you once again?
but is it possible for anyone to change 180 degree in such a short period of time?

well at least,
i didn't think i do.



yeah,
it's time to put everything down.

but action always speaks louder than words.

i just know that,
when singing Safe And Sound,
i could only immerse in my true emotions completely,
when i visualized you,
beyond my reach.

i just know that,
when playing Rue's Whistle,
i could only flow out my expressions perfectly,
when your depressness,
filled in every space of my heart.

i just know that i feel like escaping from you every time i see you.

i just know that i'm feeling guilty to another guy because of you.

i just know that i'm envious to see you being so friendly towards the others.

i just know that i want to get close to you but stand far away instead.

i just know that... ...
i can't do that.


it's just another impossible mission,
for me to walk away from you... ...