planning

knowing how to plan is a good thing.
yeah i agree.

BUT

knowing how to plan with taking in almost EVERY detail,
is a completely different thing to say.

being proactive is another important issue.

knowing how to plan,
well not even a real plan actually,
but leave the details to others to solve,
and then... ...
POOF!
11th hour again... ...

don't compare who's the busiest,
because everyone is busy.

last minute thingy,
never works for a perfectionist.

a perfectionist,
scraps the head off to think of as much details as possible;
a perfectionist,
solves the incoming problems as soon as possible;
a perfectionist,
gathers the information required as many as possible;
a perfectionist,
takes on own shoulder as much things as possible.

a perfectionist,
tries to be as proactive as possible.

nothing can go wrong at all,
and things MUST not go wrong.





now,
and finally,
i understand something.

my friends said that,
i always can't retrieve myself from works.

my teacher said that,
i must be strong to handle heavy duties.

my parents said that,
i am living an adult's life.

there's no space left,
for me to think of what others are saying behind me... ...


pathetic.

i wonder when,
will my hair... ...
turns grey.