a naive battle

the true colour,

the human nature,

unveiled and revealed.

i thought i knew them well.

but in fact i was just another stupid and naive person.

today,

i witnessed all of that.

and besides catching me off guard,

i didn't know what else to expect.

it was raining heavily,

and the atmosphere was full of thunder and storm.

i picked up my pen and paper.

and that was when she screamed beside me.

right in my ears.

i was dumbfounded.

i didn't know what i'd done.

just a question of asking everyone's opinion,

and that was the feedback i got.

never judge a person by her usual behavior.

she was so fierce that i really had to surrender.

i never knew she could be so fierce...and ***chy.

fine.

i obediently kept my mouth shut.

and my guess and past-prediction had been correct.

you really are a useless follower.

but i don't understand.

why did you throw her with never-ending questions,

like those disastrous bullets,

waiting to take away her life.

you never spoke so fluently.

again i was stunned.

and thanked to this incident,

i knew who were and are my friends.

they persuaded me.

"It's pointless for fighting an impossible battle."

"You've been sweating here and there when others are just being so relaxed. Did they acknowledge whatever you had done? Instead they turned a deaf ear on your unheard views." 

"Stop doing whatever you're doing, Joey. It's pointless and they'll just turn their backs against you."

yes,

too true.

thanks to my true friends...

yeah,

what's the point?

you guys have turned me into someone i swore i never wanted to be.

but now it happens.

when people are forced to compromise and give in every single second,

their unspeakable rage will be lighting up in the room,

from small flame into vigorous flame.

when the limit is reached...

anything can happen within a split second.

there's no more trustworthy between us,

because it's a realise that i've been mixing with strangers all the time.

silence is gold.

from now on i'll just keep quiet and follow everything you say.

EVERYTHING.

i'll NOT fight back.

i have no more energy left in dealing with you.

because i don't have the right.

due to my skin.

i lost.

i surrendered.

are you happy now?

but don't be too happy.

you haven't won a thing.

i have been holding more patience than you.

the flame of rebellion will continue burning.

so pray that it won't eat you up.