swear it!

well this time,
i must!
i really must!!!
put down all the feelings towards him...
i don't want to post anymore EMO posts here,
and i 'swear' that this will be the last...
*uncertainty*

i hate the feelings of being jealous,
i hate the feelings of being so sensitive,
i hate the feelings of putting up lightless hope!!!

no wonder people say love is blind...

really,
now i get what it means already...
i'm being blinded by it,
though i'd tried so much not to get trapped in it.
but did i ever succeed???
i don't think so...

what's the point of trying to get his attention?
what's the point of imagining and day-dreaming about him?
he's just a friend after all!
a sincere brother after all!
what do you expect from him???

wake up...
wake up...
the alarm has rung...
it's time to wake up from the sweet and truthless dreams kangaroo...

no more sympathy posts,
i don't wanna gain any sympathy...
i'm not like certain people,
who always wanna gain people's heart only...
i just wanted to voice out,
vent out everything that is blocked in my soul...
i know that things will be alright,
will get better soon...

it's just a matter of time.

and my smile is back. :-)